Most of us (au pairs) go abroad to run away from something. Some run away from their own family, from the studies that they’re not sure they should follow anymore, from, some after a break up or some just want to find themselves. I fitted into the fourth category. I left because I needed to discover who I really was deep down. At home, I felt like my life was on pause and somehow I was dying inside.
I ’ve always had an artistic flare but to do what? Director? Actress? Blogger? I didn’t know anymore, but most of all, I didn’t yet have the guts to fight for my dreams. I was living in my mind not in my body and I was spending my time being there for people and didn’t know how to be there for myself.
That’s why at the age of 24 years old, I left everything and decided to become an au pair. I had pretty good experiences with children so I knew it wouldn’t be a problem to find a family. It actually took me a year and 27 families to find one since I wanted to find the perfect match.
After spending several months as an au pair in DC and amazing memories I’ve created there, I went for a road trip with some of my friends. During that time, I had already created “au pairs chronicles” and only had a hundred of followers on the page.
It wasn’t just a road trip, it was the road trip of my life. I went to Wilmington (NC) where Dawson’s Creek, One Tree Hill and many movies were shot… I told my friends. Why not shoot a movie about au pairs? No! No! Not a movie…a TV show.
Our lives are just as full as Gossip Girl’s and Desperate Housewives’ characters. We go through a lot! People need to know about us, about what we’re going through, about the fact that between 20 and 30 we don’t know ourselves yet. About the fact that we’re still insecure, the fact that we leave everything behind us to be adventurous, to give meaning to our lives and most importantly feel alive again just like during our teenage years.
I didn’t know exactly how and with what money I would do it with but I knew I would do something. In 2014, after I returned to France, I was depressed and gained 15 kilos I’ve decided to write a book.
My English was far from perfect, but I didn’t care, I wasn’t a writer but I didn’t care either. I just knew, I would write a novel based on true stories, mine, my friends and other au pairs. It would explain everything an au pair is going through just like the memes I’m creating everyday.
Being homesick, language barriers, falling in love, gaining weight, the relationship with host families.
Today, after spending more than two years writing this book, I can say that I’m almost done and that I’ve found my mission in life. Never in a million years would I think that I would be a writer, that I would work 45 hours/week and come back home creating memes, writing chapters, sleeping 5 hours sometimes per day just to write a book but to also develop a huge community. Sometimes, I have doubts, sometimes I cry but I never give up because, like I said I’ve found my mission in life and never would I have succeeded if I didn’t leave my hometown in France 5 years ago to be an au pair in USA…
PS: HERE IS MY NEW VIDEO