I’ve been in the States for three weeks. And oh boy, it’s been three very emotional weeks. It may sound like a cliché, but truly the best way to describe it, is to say that it has been a roller coaster ride. There has been ups and there has been downs. When the downs hit me, I feel like nothing is right. Like moving across the globe to live with a new family was the worst decision I ever made. But then I realize that there has been more ups than downs and suddenly I feel a little bit better. The first night at the training school, I was so ready to go home. It was after midnight before we arrived, everyone in my room was asleep when I came in, the top bunk was horrible and there was no air conditioning in the room – only two lousy fans. But I made it through the first night and the next morning everything looked a bit brighter.

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It’s okay to miss your family and friends back home – I surely do. It’s weird that I don’t have my best friend just across the street and it’s weird that it’s someone else’s mom who is sleeping in the bedroom next to mine. But I look at this year abroad as an au pair as a really big opportunity for me. First of all, it’s a great way to experience a new culture. Everything here is so different – the food, the traffic, the language, the state of mind. I think that the list might be endless. Second, I feel lucky that I get to meet new people from all over the world. A family has let me into their house and  I’m now going to be a part of their family. And then I get to spend a lot of time with other au pairs from so many different countries – and we all have one thing in common. We want to explore the world. But the most important opportunity I get, while being here, is the opportunity to get a chance to get to know myself better. I can figure out who I am and what I wanna do with my life. I can experience new sides of myself that I maybe didn’t even know I had.

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Yes, moving to a new country to live with a new family is overwhelming. I have been crying in my room as I tried to take in all of the new impressions I get everyday. I have been falling asleep before 9 pm because all of those new impressions make me so exhausted. But I’m smiling. I have a feeling that this is going to be a good year with many amazing experiences. Whenever I’m having a hard time – even though I have only been here for two weeks – I think about all the things I still have to experience. I look at my bucket list and realize that I can’t leave. It would be like leaving a dream behind – a really good one.

So when I have those bad days I keep myself busy. I play with my host kids even though I’m not working, I go out and meet new people – and I message friends and family back home. They got my back and they are looking out for me. And that’s all I really need to know.

I’m a 19 year old Danish au pair living in Long Island, NY.
My dream is to share my au pair experience with other au pairs. So far I’ve discovered that becoming an au pair has been an emotional roller coaster ride – I want to share that ride with you guys.
We need an au pair community for the au pairs across the globe
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One thought on “It’s happening…

  1. Hi, I am Christa an Au Pair on California! I have been here for almost 5 months and I just want to say that it will get better :).

    Hang in there :D*

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